Tomorrow morning I plan to attempt my first 300k in 2 years. To say I’m nervous is an understatement. 2 years ago I was on this ride and I kinda freaked out. I did not want to be out there. I did not want to pedal. I was over it. I’m not sure why exactly that happened. I think I just burned out and need a break.
So tomorrow I am going to ride the exact same route. Hopefully. I actually feel like a stronger rider than I was two years ago. I feel like I’m in much better shape than I was two years ago and the mileage doesn’t scare me. What scares me is what the demons in my head will do. No matter the physical shape I’m in, they are stronger. Always. It’s what took me out of the Tour Divide and why I DNF’d a 600k.
So tomorrow I’ll be spendin’ the day pedalin’ 185 miles around Orange County. Hopefully with some new friends on bikes, and without some old ones in my noggin’. Wish me luck!